Remembering Decembers

Last month I got to take in a wonderful holiday concert put on by the Yarmouth chorale. I sat and listened to the singing I watching Jill’s foot-tapping and her appreciating the music, as tears silently rolled down my face. I couldn’t stop thinking that this was something that she would have gotten involved with – had the stroke not happened. “Stupid eye ducts, you’ve betrayed me again,” I thought

Butterflies

Today I am like a butterfly flitting from task to task, never finishing one thing. I cannot settle my mind. It’s spinning. This time, not on my mother, but on me, a topic that always unsettles me. I am putting lots of pressure on myself – to get out there. One, because I need a source of income, but I also need to meet some people my age. Start my

Breathing Easier

Today we are grateful Yesterday was Jill’s moving day. Since I found out Mum got the bed at the Villa St Joseph I have been happy, but not sure how to feel. After all, I, have been traveling in some form or another since October of last year, to see her…now I will be less than 10 mins away. After dropping S at school I drove to Shelburne to pack

on asking for help

There is quite a great deal that is new with Jill and I want to share it with you….I want to share it because I am so f’ing proud of her…but also we need some help for the next few months. This is a hard thing for me to do; ask for help. It humbles me. Makes me feel weak to be dependant on someone else. I’d rather do it

Superheros & Kittens

Superheros & Kittens We all need an escape, don’t we? Something that lets us turn off the worry, pain or anger, if only for a few brief minutes? I don’t know how I would have made it here, without, wait for it…. superhero movies and kitten videos. Even now as I write this I have Thor: Ragnarok on in the background. Go ahead laugh. I KNOW.  It’s funny. Even now,

Hurricane Dorian Slumber Party

I can’t lie…I am a little freaked out. This is our first major storm since I have been here. We have our “storm chips” (a Nova Scotian tradition) ready and are stocked up with provisions and water – just in case. Last I heard the eye of Dorian was headed for Shelburne, where Jill is. I am driving there today to pick her up for a few days – knowing

Acceptance and Faith

Crows Neck Beach – Photo Jill Smith This blog will be a raw journal of my feelings; as well as updates on my mums well being, but mostly it will be a safe space for me to say what I need to say and it won’t always be flowers and roses. If this makes you uncomfortable, don’t read it. I’ll still love you. april Why her? I struggle with this

Right Neglect

A look at the ocean, through Jill’s eyes. This blog will be a raw journal of my feelings; as well as updates on my mums well being, but mostly it will be a safe space for me to say what I need to say and it won’t always be flowers and roses. If this makes you uncomfortable, don’t read it. I’ll still love you. april The brain sure is an

Alienation & Personal Growth

This blog will be a raw journal of my feelings; as well as updates on my mums well being, but mostly it will be a safe space for me to say what I need to say and it won’t always be flowers and roses. If this makes you uncomfortable, don’t read it. I’ll still love you. april If you don’t have anything nice to say don’t say anything at all.

The 2 Dreaded ‘A’ Words

This blog will be a raw journal of my feelings; as well as updates on my mums well being, but mostly it will be a safe space for me to say what I need to say and it won’t always be flowers and roses. If this makes you uncomfortable, don’t read it. I’ll still love you. april a·pha·sia : loss of ability to understand or express speech, caused by brain